The life story of a little girl that endured various different hardships in life, lived to tell her testimony as an adult.

When I close my eyes I can see that old house. I walk up to the door hoping hes not there, but when I reach for the knob it opens, there he is pulling me in and locking the door behind me. The trip to his bedroom seems like eternity. I lay there with my eyes and fist closed tight. I can smell the alcohol on his breath. I pray to God for it to be over; when its finally over I walk to the bathroom to clean myself up. It feels like a fire burning between my legs. I run cold water on some tissue to comfort me. I slowly open the door there he is motioning for me to go sit on the couch, when I get to the couch he covers me up with a blanket. I pray that one day this nightmare will end, for twelve years I didnt know what it was like to sleep at night. My brother Trevor would come in my room and keep me up half the night and after school daddy would have sex with me as soon as momma went to work. I walked around in shorts so he could have me whenever he wanted. I couldnt wait for mommas days off; she didnt talk to me but, I could sleep at night without being scared to close my eyes. I dont know why I never told anyone maybe its because then the abuse would become real or maybe I cried and no one heard my cry or was the pain so bad I couldnt cry out loud. I thought about running away but where would I go, we lived forty-five miles from the nearest town, he would have killed me by the time the police arrived. I loved going to school it was the only place I could find safety, for seven hours of my day I could pretend that my life was normal. I always got nervous when three oclock came; the only thing I looked forward to was the long bus ride home. I was the first to be picked up and the last to be dropped off. When the bus turned that corner and came to a complete stop, my heart would pound because behind those doors was my living nightmare.

Tells about in how I had to survive in the Inner City as a child.

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Look through the window, see into my soul. Everyone comes of age in different ways. Through the abandonment, abuse, neglect, uncertainty, longing, and finally realization; step into my world. From the depression that resulted from the abandonment of my birth parents, to my sister being kicked out of the house at the age of 13, the depression that soon followed. My insecurities are on full display with my first love, to my marriage at 21 and the birth of my son at 22. The confusion of falling for a friend and having the realization that I would forever be trapped. Watch the growth of my journey to now and seeing the world for the first time and finally finding the love of my life. My life, my soul told through poetry. See through my eyes and into my soul.

Today I awoke Like any other day Today was the fi rst and my last day Today is the day that I take my life Today is the day that I take this one last walk I have all the stuff And I will even carry the pain But this isnt no ordinary walk You see this walk defi nes me It will let you see all of my You will know my naked truth Today in this last walk You will see all I was once a happy child with smiles and cheer I had the mother the father and the sisters to share With family and friends that followed near I had an aunt the loved me o so dear But later that year the tears began to fall And my tears begun to follow so close in the air Right foot left foot Just as easy I lost my dad to the streets that he loved so dear Later she said I love you so dear And she died the aunt that loved me o so dear. With less that 15 steps I would take near I would almost loose my mother 3 times that year With father no where in sight my sister step in so dear Th e walk isnt over with more to come 20 more steps and she molested me 5 more and I never trusted no more since then 10 more steps I take And I see me with 10 more suicide attempts Failure came with no success So my heart became depressed With comfort in food and my world Where I found little boy blue As the steps continue my life fl ashes by All that haunts me and where I said goodbye With 6 more steps I take I found friends but I also found hate Hate from others and yes that includes family and friends With one step that adds seven now I hate myself once more now 18 steps more I take and I end up a t a street light Red means stop but with me it means rage With not much more to go now With a fl ame that use to burn bright with a fellow And yes he was my knight But thought from my head with unexplained truth And the taste for the world Took me 9 step further away When it ended with 25 steps of one night stands And a gift to carry with my souls that is now save But at a cost of family friends and a love life that is no more 5 more steps now and the rode is almost there. With the last few tears follow the steps One more step and I stand here With all my secrets exposed And a body that bares it all with the marks and there no end Today I took my last walk And step by step I told my life And I wonder why I am still alive And why he hasnt taken my life or why he wont let me take my own Oddly, he speaks to me and says youre not done With every step you took was an obstacle and when I pushed You pushed back Dont give up now when youre almost done I know your story now the world does to Now show them what you can do You beaten the odds over and over again Now this year its is the end you fi ght once more And my blessed child you shall win Today I awoke with and end insight and now I see I must begin again But this time with happiness insight at the end