This book truly brings the Sibelius story to life and offers a new and fascinating insight into his development both as a composer and as a man - a must-have book for all those who appreciate Sibelius's music, whether they are musicians, students or other music lovers, or for those who love historical novels. Based on true events and told from Sibelius's own point of view, My Music, My Drinking & Me - The Memoirs of Jean Sibelius is the story of Finland's greatest composer, one of the foremost symphonists of the 20th century. It is a turbulent and violent period in European history, and Finland is struggling to gain and maintain its independence. Sibelius is expected by many to be a spokesman for his country. However, he is uncomfortable with the position thrust upon him; he has no desire to make political statements through his music, wanting only to depict the elemental forces of Finnish nature. On a more personal level, he is battling with alcoholism; he believes that he needs alcohol to be able to write music, but does his drinking foster or hinder his creativity? Furthermore, if he does not give up drinking, it will cost him his marriage. Which is the stronger - his need to drink or his desire to save his marriage before it is too late? My Music, My Drinking & Me is as much about a marriage as about music. In it, Caroline J Sinclair has drawn a vivid picture of Sibelius's family life, and of the country that inspired him to compose - his beloved Finland.

He starts nibbling on my chest and starts pulling off my bra away from my chest. I couldn’t take it anymore, I push him away hard and scream loudly and fall off the couch and try to find my way towards the door. He laughs in a childlike manner and jumps on top of me and bites down on my shoulder blade. “Ahhh!! What are you doing! Get off me!!” I scream clawing on the wooden floor trying to get away from him.He sinks his teeth in me deeper and presses me down on the floor with all his body weight. Tears stream down my face while I groan in the excruciating pain that he is giving me. “Please I beg you, please stop.” I whisper closing my eyes slowly, stopping my struggle against him.He slowly lets me go and gets off me and sits in front of me. I close my eyes and feel his fingers dancing on my spine; he keeps running them back and forth humming a soft tune with his mouth. “What is your name pretty girl?” He slowly bounces his fingers on the soft skin of my thigh. “Isabelle.” I whisper softly.“I’m Daniel; I just wanted to play with you. Why would you hurt me, Isabelle?” He whispers my name coming closer to my ear.I could feel his hot breathe against my neck. A shiver runs down my spine when I feel him kiss my cheek and start to go down to my jaw while leaving small trails of wet kisses. “Please stop it; this is not playing, please.” I hold in my cries and try to push myself away from him.

Charles Collins was raised with a silver spoon in his mouth. He was raised to have good morals and values and lived his life as a kindly person. He thought his life was perfect. Everything was seemingly in order, and he never questioned this perfection. Until Richard. Richard was an openly gay man who was so beautiful in all his masculinity one had to do a double take when they saw him—and this was both women and men. It was no different for Charles. This was when Charles realized his life was not perfect in the way he was led to believe and lived. He had to make a choice to live his life as he had been taught or live his life according to his heart. These are the trials and tribulations of Charles Collins.

Part One February to July 1990Part Two July to September 1990Part Three December 1990 to February 1991Part Four June 1991Part Five January 1992 to December 1994 Copyright © Libri GmbH. All rights reserved.

"Darian was a fantasy, what I had with Wallace was real." Free spirit, Chanel Henderson, has finally found happiness in her first genuine relationship. That euphoria is challenged when her "friendship" with R&B singer, Darian Russell, exposes the cracks in their foundation. Darian Russell is known for his baby-making music and loyalty to remaining a bachelor. After suffering heartbreak early in his career, he vowed never to let another woman get that close to his heart again. Avoiding love had been easy until Chanel Henderson made it impossible. ***This story includes explicit language, strong sexual content, and violence. Please don't read this story if you feel that you will be triggered.***

Jo Waldman lives life to her own soundtrack—working for her father by day while pursuing her music career in NYC’s downtown clubs at night. Music is her passion, along with her boyfriend, Jesse, who shares her dreams of making it big. Jo's old band, The Lonely Hearts Club, came thisclose to getting a huge recording contract, and she’s just biding her time, waiting for lightning to strike twice. The music business is tough, but so is Jo. So when Jo's father fires her and Jesse breaks up with her, Jo doesn’t get upset—she just wants to rage. Dusting off her computer, Jo writes a blog entry, pouring her heart out about the shortcomings of love. Except that no sooner does Jo hit “upload” than the site sends a mass e-mail to the entire Lonely Hearts mailing list, alerting everybody Joe has ever met that she's been brutally dumped. All Jo wants to do is hide under the covers, but to her surprise, supportive e-mails start flowing in—many of them from complete strangers. Apparently, her anti-love rant has struck a chord. The Lonely Hearts Club Blog develops a huge following, even capturing the eye of Jo’s sworn nemesis, bubble gum pop princess Amber Fairchild. Jo soon becomes an icon for all things “anti-love,” and at her fans' request, she begins to plan The Lonely Hearts Club Ball—a massive anti-love Valentine's Day party to end all parties. Jo quickly becomes the poster girl for lonely hearts, and it inspires her to start writing music again. There's only one problem: the web programmer helping Jo with her site is simply dreamy. Jo's never been very good at depriving herself of anything, but if this budding romance is exposed, she'll be revealed as an 'anti-love' fraud and risk losing all the people who have grown trust her voice. So is it time to start singing love songs, or time to pick up the guitar and return to the hard rock that almost got The Lonely Hearts signed in the first place? Either way, Jo's got some big decisions to make, and it looks like she's going to have to take one step closer to doing something she never thought she'd do—becoming a grownup. From Brenda Janowitz, author of the beloved Brooke Miller novels SCOT ON THE ROCKS and JACK WITH A TWIST comes another uproariously funny and heartfelt story that will ring true to anyone who's dug themselves into a hole only to find that getting out is where you least expect it.

I wrote this book to try to help someone who has gone or is going through a similar situation. You have to get help. It will work out. It may be hard at times, but the pain is worth the outcome. I have been sober for fourteen years. Im making many breakthroughs. I must take things one day at a time.