If getting emotional is something you don't want to happen then reading this book is something you don't want to do because an emotional rollercoaster will be a direct understatement of what you will experience as your heart rattles and the words jump from the page in this real life diary. If you think what you have to give is too much for this book so will be what is written inside. It will be too much for you! Forbidden from book clubs and anyone under the age of 18 without permission from their parents to read, this may be your only opportunity to divulge in it. So if you are thinking about waiting to read this you are not thinking at all. It's currently not available in brick and mortar stores because it would be too expensive to plastic wrap each book to keep every ones lustful eyes off of the secrets within these pages. If you are looking for a book with proper grammar and excellent spelling you have come to the wrong place as the Author once received an F in English class. So if you are looking to read words from a literary genius you might as well go back in time because this modern day mock up won't make the cut! If there is anything I CAN promise you, it is that it won't be anything like you are thinking. There is only one way not to find out...that is by not reading it! So keep your money and don't get the book because I don't need your money and you don't need the book...or do you? But I will stop there because it's not my job to convince you to read this, in fact, I don't even have a job.

If getting emotional is something you don't want to happen then reading this book is something you don't want to do because an emotional rollercoaster will be a direct understatement of what you will experience as your heart rattles and the words jump from the page in this real life diary. If you think what you have to give is too much for this book so will be what is written inside. It will be too much for you! Forbidden from book clubs and anyone under the age of 18 without permission from their parents to read, this may be your only opportunity to divulge in it. So if you are thinking about waiting to read this you are not thinking at all. It's currently not available in brick and mortar stores because it would be too expensive to plastic wrap each book to keep every ones lustful eyes off of the secrets within these pages. If you are looking for a book with proper grammar and excellent spelling you have come to the wrong place as the Author once received an F in English class. So if you are looking to read words from a literary genius you might as well go back in time because this modern day mock up won't make the cut! If there is anything I CAN promise you, it is that it won't be anything like you are thinking. There is only one way not to find out...that is by not reading it! So keep your money and don't get the book because I don't need your money and you don't need the book...or do you? But I will stop there because it's not my job to convince you to read this, in fact, I don't even have a job.

Warning! If getting emotional is something you don't want to happen then reading this book is something you don't want to do because an emotional roller coaster will be a direct understatement of what you will experience as your heart rattles from your chest and the words jump from the page in this real life Diary! If you think the price of this book is too much so will be what is written inside. It will be too much for you! Forbidden from book clubs and anyone under the age of 18 without permission from their parents to read, this may be your only opportunity to divulge in it. So if you are thinking about waiting to read this you are not thinking at all. It is currently not available in brick and mortar stores because it would be too expensive to plastic wrap each book to keep every ones lustful eyes off of the secrets within these pages. If you are looking for a book with proper grammar and excellent spelling you have come to the wrong place as the author of this book once received an F in English class. So if you are looking to read the words of a literary genius you might as well go back in time because this modern day mock-up wont make the cut! If there is anything that I CAN promise you, it is that it wont be anything like you are thinking. There is only one way not to find out...that is by not reading it! So keep your money and don't buy the book because I don't need your money and you don't need the book...or do you? But I will stop there because it's not my job to convince you to read this, in fact, I don't even have a job.

Someway, somehow, women find themselves branded and rejected by society. The shameful title of deadbeat mom, carries no weight as to what the actual truth of the matter is. What mother could leave her children for sex, drugs and alcohol? This book is the story of a woman who once did just that and overcame that title. The road to reclaiming motherhood is treacherous. There is a reality to face and in a world of instant gratification, this takes time. Success and results don't come instantaneously but with this book, you have entered into a Divine set up. Through this story, you will gain hope in knowing that you are not alone. Victory is attainable and you are victorious. Today is the first day of the rest of your life and rear view mirrors are made small for a reason. Put your hiking boots on and take the first step up what seems to be an unclimbable mountain. The families and loved ones affected by addiction will also gain hope in hearing what goes through the mind of a deadbeat mom. When I first began the journey of writing this book, I didn't know that it would take the path of throwing out a life raft to the loved ones. You may be tired and you may want to give up and that is understandable. What I want you to know is, although you don't know me, I have been praying for you for quite some time.

"By most appearances, she's the girl next door, but she's got an insatiable sexual appetite for forbidden male fruit. And most times, it's the most rotten male fruit ... that she deeply desires most. ... This right here, this book, this right here is about my life's experiences as it relates to many sexual facets of me. Not all, but many. This is about me sharing some of my thoughts, processes, stagnations, evolutions as a woman and sexual being."--Page v.