A Dostoevskian psychological novel of ideas, Novel with Cocaine explores the interaction between psychology, philosophy, and ideology in its frank portrayal of an adolescent's cocaine addiction. The story relates the formative experiences of Vadim at school and with women before he turns to drug abuse and the philosophical reflections to which it gives rise. Although Ageyev makes little explicit reference to the Revolution, the novel's obsession with addictive forms of thinking finds resonance in the historical background, in which "our inborn feelings of humanity and justice" provoke "the cruelties and satanic transgressions committed in its name.

The New York Times cultural reporter and author of Lads describes the impact of his drug-addict father on his early childhood, tracing his efforts as an adult to rebuild their relationship and untangle his father's tragic and complicated past.

Cocaine memoirs is a roller coaster ride through the insane world of Anvil. A long road trip seems to be never ending after every encounter with everyone he meets becomes another twist in the trip. The trip to Key West Florida in search of His late father's ex wife Margaret. The mission to find Margaret and give her a set of letter left behind by Javier with instructions to find her. The redemption is the ghost of Anvil's father coming along for the ride and the ghost of his mother who Anvil has never seen. The ride is from Pennsylvania to Key West, with stops in every state for another exciting twist. The motivation is to find Margaret and to locate his ex girlfriend and reunite with his son. Ending with Anvil's inspirational reunion, and the becoming of his new future.

Recounts the addiction and recovery of the world-renowned solo artist and former lead singer and songwriter of Soul Coughing.

A gripping, ultimately triumphant memoir that's also the most comprehensive and comprehensible study of the neuroscience of addiction written for the general public. FROM THE INTRODUCTION: "We are prone to a cycle of craving what we don't have, finding it, using it up or losing it, and then craving it all the more. This cycle is at the root of all addictions, addictions to drugs, sex, love, cigarettes, soap operas, wealth, and wisdom itself. But why should this be so? Why are we desperate for what we don't have, or can't have, often at great cost to what we do have, thereby risking our peace and contentment, our safety, and even our lives?" The answer, says Dr. Marc Lewis, lies in the structure and function of the human brain. Marc Lewis is a distinguished neuroscientist. And, for many years, he was a drug addict himself, dependent on a series of dangerous substances, from LSD to heroin. His narrative moves back and forth between the often dark, compellingly recounted story of his relationship with drugs and a revelatory analysis of what was going on in his brain. He shows how drugs speak to the brain - which is designed to seek rewards and soothe pain - in its own language. He shows in detail the neural mechanics of a variety of powerful drugs and of the onset of addiction, itself a distortion of normal perception. Dr. Lewis freed himself from addiction and ended up studying it. At the age of 30 he traded in his pharmaceutical supplies for the life of a graduate student, eventually becoming a professor of developmental psychology, and then of neuroscience - his field for the last 12 years. This is the story of his journey, seen from the inside out.

Crack Cocaine, is a series of poems / memoirs about addiction to crack, cocaine, heroin, alcohol, street life and prison. The journey begins at age 12 with dropping out of school and being committed and confined to a mental institution for one year. The NYS Psychiatric Institute, due to violent behavior. Yes, I am certified psychiatric. I escaped twice. It progresses into street life, marijuana, and alcohol. At age 13, I am introduced to heroin injections, alcohol, and theft. Eventually I become a heroin addict and criminal. On my 16th birthday I wake up in a cell on Rikers Island, the worst jail in NYC. At age 18, I am sentenced to 5 years in maximum security prison. I beat someone with a bat. Upon release from Sing Sing Prison, I return to street life, heroin, cocaine, and alcohol. I meet Joey who introduced me to crack cocaine. I become a Crack Head, then homeless and sleep on the street for two years. I become degraded, experience violence, murder, and cocaine psychosis. I have been shot at, chased with knives, brutally beaten, while terrorized by a vicious dog. The guy that beat me up, Tito, he's dead. Shot 3 times in the chest with a 45. I piss on his grave. Fuck him. More than once, I overdosed, was found unconscious. I've been wakened in the night by a stray dog who sniffed me as I slept in garbage. "Fuck the world, I'm bullet proof" was my trademark. I have a Master's Degree in Deception, a PHD in Stealing, a Doctorate in seeing a Hurt Look on my mother's face. I lied I cheated I robbed I stole. I woke up in the morning with no drugs no money, never did I say, "Today I won't get high". I made money and drugs appear out of nowhere. If I had nothing to eat all day and was hungry, and made $20, I bought a bag of chips a quarter water, 50 Cents, total, and spent $19.50 on Crack, a loose Newport, a pint of Night Train wine. In 1986 as I slept on the streets of NYC, in my pocket, a 5 shot 38, a crack pipe, a pen, and paper. I wrote a book of poetry about crack, heroin murder and crime. I wrote poetry about the things I saw. It is titled, Crack Street Victim Lane. I have held on to it dearly. In this book is the cover of it, one of the yellow wrinkled pages in my illustrations. Crack Street Victim Lane, Sam on Crack, Crack Cocaine, is my collection of those poems, complimented by personal addiction memoirs and cartoons. A true story written in graphic content, explicit detail. Joey They found his body in a garbage bag. He played a game, it was not tag. Joey always had a smile. But being sneaky was his style. What a shame, the way he died, inside my mind, I hear his cries. Because of crack, Joey told you lies, owed people money, Joey died. This was murder not a joke. They tortured him, they made him choke. By Samuel Arcelay

"Impossible to put down. It haunts me still.” -Alex Marzano-Lesnevich, author of The Fact of a Body: A Murder and a Memoir A riveting, deeply personal exploration of the opioid crisis-an empathic memoir infused with hints of true crime. In November 2013, Rose Andersen's younger sister Sarah died of an overdose in the bathroom of her boyfriend's home in a small town with one of the highest rates of opioid use in the state. Like too many of her generation, she had become addicted to heroin. Sarah was 24 years old. To imagine her way into Sarah's life, Rose revisits their volatile childhood, marked by their stepfather's omnipresent rage and their father's pathological lying. As the dysfunction comes into focus, so does a broader picture of the opioid crisis and the drug rehabilitation industry in small towns across America. And when Rose learns from the coroner that Sarah's cause of death was a methamphetamine overdose, the story takes a wildly unexpected turn. As Andersen sifts through her sister's last days, we come to recognize the contours of grief and its aftermath: the psychic shattering which can turn to anger, the pursuit of an ever-elusive verdict, and the intensely personal rites of imagination and art needed to actually move on. Reminiscent of Alex Marzano-Lesnevich's The Fact of a Body, Maggie Nelson's Jane: A Murder, and Lacy M. Johnson's The Other Side, Andersen's debut is a potent, profoundly original journey into and out of loss.