Danger pulsated in Lisa's veins as she viciously scoured her floor, trying to figure out what was really bothering her. Her five-year old daughter, Stephanie, needed to be protected, that much was clear. Desperation washed over her as she came up with nothing. But this much she knew: it was him. That night began the nightmares. She was being gang raped, and this scenario repeated nightly for years. What did it mean? The first flashback hit her while she was wide awake a couple weeks later. Her husband held her as she sobbed and tried to scrub the feelings off of her skin. James stayed faithfully by her side that night, and all the nights that came after. Nine months later the flashbacks took an evil turn. There was excruciating body pain and images of graves, candles, crosses, and white robed and hooded people whose faces were hidden in the shadows. Lisa decided that it was time to investigate and prove to herself that she was completely crazy, her idea of a better outcome than believing something like that could happen to her. James and Lisa travelled back to her home town and had the unexpected outcome of finding enough reasons to accept that she was, indeed, a survivor of Satanic Ritual Abuse (SRA). She returned home devastated. The next fifteen years were filled with ever worsening flashbacks. Her body fell apart and day to day survival took more energy that she had. She looked for help in the Christian community. She found very wonderful and caring counselors, but no one with experience with SRA survivors. Lisa realized that she could no longer endure being isolated from other survivors. She needed to find SRA survivors to help her with the process of healing. She found a community of them around the world, each one trying to survive a life decimated by the abuse. The one thing that remained a constant in her life was God. She and her family stayed in their local church throughout the years, and God gave her the strength to get out of bed each morning and face another day. The SRA abuse that Lisa endured was worse than being the victim in a horror movie. Lisa worked hard in counseling to try to get all of the healing that she could. Follow Lisa as she works through her past and comes to grip with her present. Watch her struggle to balance healing with the ability to stay functional in her life. See the cruel backlash from her family. Finally, see how she finds God's peace in the midst of it all.

“…One of the most pioneering and valuable contributions to the field.” —Dr. David K. Sakheim, co-editor of Out of Darkness: Understanding Satanism and Ritual Abuse If you know or suspect that you are a survivor of ritual abuse, you are not alone. This book is an inspiring, comprehensive guide showing that healing is possible. In a clear and gentle voice, Oksana helps demystify ritual abuse cults, and offers groundbreaking strategies for recovery. Drawing on inner wisdom and spirituality Oksana takes survivors step by step through the healing process. “This has got to be, definitely, the best book yet available on ritual abuse healing. I loved the whole book. I kept saying ‘Yes, yes, yes - this is how it is’…I thank you, my inner kids thank you, and I think future generations will thank you. —A Survivor

People who have survived ritual abuse or mind control experiments have often been silenced, accused of lying, mocked and disbelieved. Clinicians working with survivors often find themselves isolated, facing the same levels of disbelief and denial from other professionals within the mental health field. This report - based on proceedings from a conference on the subject - presents knowledge and experience from both clinicians and survivors to promote understanding and recovery from organized and ritual abuse, mind control and programming. The book combines clinical presentations, survivors' voices, and research material to help address the ways in which we can work clinically with mind control and cult programming from the perspective of relational psychotherapy.

Hell Minus One is different from other previously published memoirs by victims of satanic ritual abuse. Instead of distressing, heart-breaking accounts without collaborative or corroborative evidence, Anne's parents confessed their atrocities¿both in writing and verbally¿to clergymen, and to detectives from the Utah Attorney General's Office. Anne's suppressed memories, which erupted when she was in her mid-30s, were fully substantiated by her mother and stepfather.Hell Minus One is an unforgettable and moving story that takes the reader to more than just the depths of human depravity. After Anne learned the horrible and heartbreaking truth about her childhood, she embarked on an amazing inner journey of healing¿and forgiveness. She knew she had to forgive her tormentors, or they would own her¿and define who she is¿for the rest of her life. The steps she took to heal and forgive, and to commit herself to a new life of love and purpose, are inspirational and legendary. Her commitment to own and define her own life inspires readers to see their own challenges in a new light.

As a girl, Alia Joy came face to face with weakness, poverty, and loss in ways that made her doubt God was good. There were times when it felt as if God had abandoned her. What she didn't realize then was that God was always there, calling her to abandon herself. In this deeply personal exploration of what it means to be "poor in spirit," Joy challenges our cultural proclivity to "pull ourselves up by our own bootstraps." She calls on readers to embrace true vulnerability and authenticity with God and with one another, showing how weakness does not disqualify us from inclusion in the kingdom of God--instead, it is our very invitation to enter in. Anyone who has struggled with feeling inadequate, disillusioned, or just too broken will find hope. This message is an antidote to despair, helping readers reclaim the ways God is good, even when life is anything but.

From the nationwide satanic panic in the 1980s to local political cover-ups, shocking kidnappings, unsolved child murders, and scandalous pedophile rings, this book takes you behind the deceptive headlines and, finally, reveals what was going on in Omaha when all hell broke loose.Rich and well-connected members of Omaha's elite carried out unspeakable acts of abuse and even murder on innocent children. David Shurter was one of those sexually abused survivors forever scarred by the horrible rites performed on him by his own parents and other followers of Satan. It wasn't until he entered psychotherapy in midlife that long ignored childhood memories came to light, and when he discovered his gruesome nightmares were indeed real.This book, finally, is an expose of the surprising participants and unbelievable horrors involving murder, drugs, lavish parties, pedophiles, suspected government conspiracies, and the Omaha gay scene that cast a dark cloud of suspicion over an unsuspecting city.David Shurter takes you down the rabbit hole.

If we look closely at the people God used in the Old Testament, we will notice that many of them failed God at some point. They messed up badly, and God still used them. Even in the New Testament, there are people who messed up, and God used them to build His kingdom and church. God has used and will continue to use aEURoemessed-up people,aEUR and many such are found in the genealogy of Jesus and also referenced in Hebrews 11, who were broken and really messed up. The Bible is filled with stories of people that have struggled, stumbled, and simply failed God. God stopped Saul (Paul) on the road to Damascus, and his life would be changed and transformed forever. Paul easily became the greatest apostle of all time. In scriptures, there are so many other persons whom God used, even though they were broken. People like Moses, David, Solomon, and Rahab show us how God is still willing to use us after we have messed up. No matter what broken state weaEUR(tm)re in, we are never beyond GodaEUR(tm)s reach. We are never so far gone that God canaEUR(tm)t make us effective for His purposes. It is us as human beings who judge each other by our own personal standards and write people off as being unacceptable. I messed up badly during my ministry, but I am convinced that God still has a purpose for me and wants to continue to use me in ministry. He has already been demonstrating this to me in a clear, strong, and meaningful way When we are broken or feel that we have messed up, that is not the time to worry about what others may do or say since other humans can make us feel worse. Equally, it is not the time to give up and turn away from God. Rather, it is the time to draw nearer to God. That is when we should seek God all the more for direction, clarity, help, and strength. ItaEUR(tm)s the time when we should, like David, ask God to create a clean heart and renew a steadfast spirit within us and restore us into the joy of His salvation.