The original idea of writing cracked porcelain was to bring to you a message that life is not all about happiness, sometimes we have to experience sad moments. Cracked porcelain is about abuse and finding your own way of coping with the aftermath of such a vile act. It is also about finding your own comfort zone and living happily in a place that you feel safe in. It is about being comfortable with your own sexuality and gender many lives have been destroyed through someone else's ignorance. I aim to shock in some ways by being blunt and forth right in my writing I do not apologise for this as it is my way of getting my point of view across. May I suggest that if you have been abused in any way, that you seek help there are many people like Ruth who are willing to help you. Don't fight things on your own no one is an island and many people have been in situations like Pamela or Ruth.

This is the continuing story of Ruth Ashley, a psychiatric nurse working on a mental health unit, experiencing trauma at work and in her private life as she comes to terms with her own sexuality as a lesbian and faces the loss of so many friends. But her biggest loss was her Mother Diane and her girlfriend, Pamela. But Ruth still had Kathy, a close friend and work colleague who supported her; she would always guide her onto a straight path. But what would Ruth face next after almost being killed by Malcolm, her ex-boyfriend? And after his death, Ruth faced an avenging brother named Frank. She was persuaded by Raven, a schizophrenic woman who believed Ruth was satanic and had to die, but Raven killed Ruths mother, Diane. On her deathbed, she announced that she was not Ruths mother and explained that Pamelas mother was her real mother, and that made Pamela her half sister. Ruth pieced together her life and even began to understand the term cracked porcelain, which Pamela quoted to her when they were together. It was about abuse, and although it was about Pamela and her modeling career as a child, it could also point toward anyone who was abused. Cracked porcelain was a term used by Pamelas mother, Sarah, who considered Pamela as beautiful as newly made porcelain, unblemished and pure, but then when she was abused as a child, she became cracked porcelain. Ruth thought about her abuse over and over, facing the horror in her sleep with nightmares and then awake with reminders such as smells and the sight of disgusting, perverted old men. Seeing or meeting people who resembled her abuser and the smell of his sweaty body and aftershave that lingered on her clothes. But Ruth had to carry on with her life. Despite such memories and losses, her concern was for her sister, Claire, who was also abused, and for her girlfriend, Cheryl, and of course her faithful friend and colleague, Kathy. Ruth was also keen to help her patients on the mental health unit, supporting their needs. These were her people with broken wings and lost souls.

Cracked porcelain full story three-Remember me is the third part to the cracked porcelain trilogy, it take Ruths story to a new dimension or a place that she is unfamiliar with. Ruth is in a car crash and believes that she has died; she meets ghosts from her past and faces her demon abusers. She realises it is now time to reflect on her past and find out exactly what her future holds, as she struggles to determine whether or not she is experiencing a dream or real events. Whatever the case, she knows that her life needs to change in order for her to survive.

A completely fictitious story about Ruth Ashley and her life as a nurse and model, following her harrowing life and looking in to her past experiences of abuse. This story highlights the many emotions and nightmares as well as other effects following experiences of abuse. It also deals with lesbian relationships and societys reactions to same-sex relationships, as Ruth discovers her own sexuality amid the chaos and animosity around her. Some people may find this book disturbing, particularly if you have experienced abuse of any kind, whether it be physical, mental, psychological, or financial. You are advised to seek help, if this is the case; you can find useful websites at the end of the book.

Cracked porcelain continues with this sequel about Ruths story Following the death of Pamela, Ruth continues her life. She is tormented by her past and needs to resolve many issues before she can finally move on and live a normal life. But Ruth is soon moved out of her comfort zone when issues from the past return to haunt her life. Her psychopathic ex boyfriend Malcolm died after falling from Pamelas apartment balcony and his brother Frank threatens to avenge his death. Ruth also becomes involved in the gay pride International parades and is a voice for the freedom of all oppressed people in society. This causes a problem within the religious aspect of the community who verbally attack anyone who they feel oppose the bible and its teachings. But Ruth never stands alone somewhere in the shadows a friend fights for her; Pamela is around if not in body then in spirit. This story highlights subjects from the first book and brings the memories flooding back with as many twists and turns along the way.